Resolutions

This is the time when so many are making New Year's Resolutions.  One of mine is to blog more. I've heard from so many of you and I want you to know that I've heard you.

Life is beyond busy for me right now and quite fulfilling.  The 2nd Season of "Preachers Daughters" will be coming very soon after the first of the year, so lots of things going on right now.

The blogs coming will be worth the wait.  I guarantee it!

Happy New Year!

I miss you.....you know who you are:)

My Cup Runneth Over

I would like to share my daughter, Tawni's, blog with you. I absolutely adore this daughter of mine and I couldn't be more proud of the heart she has for people.

Here's the link and I hope you'll consider supporting her new non-profit ministry, "Unto the Least". You can make a tax-deductible donation by going to Paypal: tawniblair@yahoo.com

http://tawnikoloff.blogspot.com/

This proud Mommy thanks you for any help you can provide her ministry. 

"A Great Football Kind of Day!"

I don't know whats happened to me the past couple of years!  I mean, I've never hated watching football, but it had to be a team that interested me or a good match up. I can't get into a game that's a blow out.

But, the past couple football seasons have been much different and I've been loving me some football more than ever! Monday Nights are now "Buffalo Wing Nights" hanging with family and friends.  And it's not just the pro teams, I've developed an interested in college ball as well.

Just last week, I was in a beautiful boxed suite watching Alabama pummel Chattanooga with friends and family!  And, although this game WAS a blow out, surprisingly, I had a blast anyway!  Goes to show, its not just about the game, but the entire experience! Today, we'll be watching the Auburn/Alabama Game on an 80+ inch screen at our friend's gorgeous 20,000 sq. foot home, overlooking the lake in Tuscaloosa. Good times:).  There really is a lot to be said about sharing sports with family and friends and tailgating? Well, that's a whole other experience in itself!

The location, food, company and game today are going to be epic!  Of course, I'll be making my signature "Potato Dish" to share and can't wait to see what others bring to the table and hopefully, there's leftover turkey.

I will write soon and share much more about other latest goings on, but for now, I'm still undecided?

Roll Tide or War Eagle?!

"Eagles"

I've been listening to them since I was 10 years old.  Even at a young age, I appreciated amazing music.  It was my escape.  I lived for music then, as I still do today.  That's why I enjoy singing, (not just at a Karaoke bar!), but at my speaking engagements.

A couple years ago, I made a bucket list (see my Bucket List Blog).  God willing, I will check them off before I'm gone.  Coming in at #11 was seeing the "Eagles" live in concert.   At my age, you'd have thought I'd been to one of their concerts by now, but it's just never worked out.  So, when I found out they were coming to Nashville, I was determined to be there.  I absolutely love living in Tennessee.  The greatest concerts play here every week!  Well, nothing was going to stop me from attending this concert.  Although, it almost did, fate wouldn't have it. 

With my hectic schedule over the past several months, it had slipped my mind to buy tickets.  When I realized this oversight, I immediately began my exhaustive search online to find them.  No luck, it was sold out.  Although that was disappointing, I was determined.  I mean, have you  met me?!

As a single woman, if there's a movie I want to see, I go.  If there's a restaurant I want to try, I go.  If there's a museum I want to tour, I go.  A vacation I want to take, I take it. I like hanging out with me, so I have no issue going somewhere by myself.  However, I admit, that a concert is the one event I'd never done alone.  But, this was the Eagles!  And there's a first time for everything.

As I got myself ready, my oldest daughter, Teryn, asked where I was going.  I answered, "To the Eagles concert."  She said, "Oh, good, you finally got your ticket?!"  Nope.

When I explained to her that I was determined to be at that concert, she wasn't surprised.  She knows me well:).  She told me to have a great time and be careful.  I was on my way.

Since I was already committed to a 7pm radio interview, I knew I'd have an hour before the music started at 8.  I had it all worked out in my head.  First, find a parking space downtown and do the interview in my car.  Secondly, walk safely to the Bridgestone.  Thirdly, visit the ticket counter for a great seat!  Then, just sit back, sing my heart out and enjoy. 

My interview was over at 7:55.  I had 5 minutes.  Parking paid, $25.00, I began the two block walk to the arena.  There were people walking alongside me, with that same grin on their face!  Conversations took place all around.  It was like we were all old friends.  You could sense the anticipation and excitement in the cold, crisp air of Downtown Nashville.  It was the Eagles for gosh sakes!  As I struck up a conversation with a group of friends who'd arrived together, a guy in the group said to me, "Let me get this straight.  You came to Downtown Nashville to see a sold out Eagles concert, you don't have a ticket and you're alone?"  Yup.  That is correct.  "Well, you've got $%#@!"  So, I've been told.

As we waved good-bye and the group wished me luck, I made my way to the ticket counter.  The nice lady said, "Can I help you?"  I told her I needed a ticket and wasn't leaving without one.  She asked, "Are you alone?"  Yes.  "You came here by yourself?"  Yes!  (Jeez, people!).  "Well, that takes a lot of guts, so I'm going to do my best to find you a great seat!"  And, that, she did.  So, $120 bucks later, I had a great seat.  As I made my way to the arena, I ran into some great friends!  Here's a picture with Scott, who was there with his fiance', Sara and their friends.  When he saw me, he showed me a text he'd just received from my daughter, Teryn, who knew he'd be there.  It said, "Hey, if you see some crazy woman trying to get a ticket, it's my Mom!"  That was pretty funny. 

My heart was racing because I was so excited.  I did it!  I was here!  I'm not going to lie, I felt a bit emotional!  I had a feeling I would most likely cry, or at the least, tear up when I saw Don, Glenn, Joe, Tim, and the rest of the guys.  (No judging, please!).  My seat was so close, I could almost smell their cologne.  It was absolutely one of the best nights of my life!  (I know I need to get out more!).  I met new friends (who were also shocked I came alone), who graciously included me in their experience, and were great dancing and singing partners.  The sweet ladies beside me thought I was way too young to even know who the Eagles were, let alone have every song memorized.  I was flattered.

It was a night I'll never forget!  Not only did I hear and see one of my favorite bands of all time, I proved to myself once again that "in the waiting", single people shouldn't cease to live their lives just because they are in a season of "partner-less"!  I refuse to sit by and watch life pass me by, just because I'm not someone's other half at the moment.

No matter what stage of life you're in, don't waste it by being a spectator.  I know many singles and even couples who don't have as much fun doing life together, as I do by myself.  Get off the couch, go live!  There's so much to do and experience.  Enjoy this short life you've been given while you can!  What a waste it would be to do nothing with it.

I look forward to my next adventure.  And, although, I'm not against taking a date with me places, having one or not having one is not going to determine whether I go or not.  I want to always strive to be that person who says, "I'm glad I did", not, "I wish I had".  Do the things that bring you joy. 

What's next?  "Chicago?", "Elton John", "Paul McCartney", "Billy Joel".  Hey, I'm up for it:)

The Dove Awards

I'm having a blast in my newest venture, co-hosting a Christian Radio Show!  Mike Carson, my co-host and I have excellent rapport with one another and enjoy connecting with our audience of listeners, which is growing daily!  We've just scheduled a "Mike & Victoria" Cruise in February to Cozumel and Progresso, Mexico.  We're not only inviting listeners to join us, we're giving two cruises away!  The show is going so well  that the General Manager asked if I'd be interested in co-hosting the Country Radio Show with Mike.  I accepted.  So, Monday-Friday from 10-2pm, I'm co-hosting the Christian Station and from 2-6pm, co-hosting the Country Station.  With the magic of radio, it's easier than you might think:)

I'm still the Executive Director of two pregnancy centers, a cast member of a TV Show and speaking around the country.  Life is full and I'm truly blessed.  Just extremely busy!

Being in radio definitely has its perks.  Besides free concert tickets and meeting incredible people, just last week, Mike and I had the pleasure of attending the Dove Award's in Nashville recently.  With our press/media passes, we had access to all the nominees and winners.  The Dove's are to Christian Music what the Grammys are to secular.  Once again, I'm blown away by God's blessings.  Mike and I, along with one of our biggest advertisers and friend, Doug Gann, had a blast and met some amazing people.  They were held this year at the beautiful Lipscomb University in Nashville, TN.

What a night!  I met so many new people, had pictures taken with legends in the Christian music industry and laughed so hard at the fun we had.

I am so enjoying my life right now.  There's no doubt I'm busier than ever, but I'm not complaining!  Here are some great pictures from a great night.

In the press room, someone handed me a Dove Award and I pretended for a moment to be a recipient, sprinkled with a fake speech and everything! I had to give it back of course, but it was hilarious when I posted this picture on Facebook how my amazing friends continued to congratulate me over and over again!  It was sweet that they actually thought I could have won this award!  I have some amazing people in my life:)

 

 Toby Mac is a legend in the Christian music industry.  My son-in-law, Chad Chapin, played with Toby for 10 years in DC Talk.  He was pleased when I mentioned Chad's name.

 

 I watched Colton Dixon throughout American Idol.  He's incredibly talented, with a true heart for Jesus!

 

 Jamie Grace is a newcomer.  You will want to remember her name.  She's amazing!

 

Another memory for my journal.  Can't wait for next year!  Truly blessed:)

And to Mike Carson.........you're welcome.

The Answer is "YES!"

I couldn't begin to count how many times I'm asked the question, "Is there going to be a Season 2 of "Preacher's Daughters"?

I've been given permission to say one thing.  

Yes!  "Preacher's Daughter's Season 2 is Coming soon!

I Love Me Some Coca Cola.......and History too!

As you know by now, I divide my time living in two states.  For half the month, I spend my time in Monroe, LA, hosting two radio shows, with the other half spent in Nashville, running two pregnancy centers, as well as, traveling the weekends for speaking engagements.  Life is busy, but good.  Today, I'm in Central Louisiana and after finishing up my radio shows this afternoon, I decided to explore West Monroe a little bit.  I've passed by the Biedenharn Museum and Gardens several times since I've been here, but never had time to stop.  What better day than today to explore! 

I was pretty excited about this little adventure, only wished I could have shared it with Kolby, but she was still in school.  I made my way to the gift shop to purchase my ticket.  The lovely lady working looked behind me searching for whoever was making this trip with me.  Then she asked "Are you alone?"  I answered, "Yes."  She escorted me into a small room, where I watched a video about the Biedenharn Family, where they came from and how they began their business empire in the bottling industry.  The Biedenharn Family are well known in these parts.  Instead of trying to explain to you who they are, here's an excerpt from their website that does a pretty good job:

"In 1894, Joseph A. Biedenharn, a country businessman in Vicksburg, Mississippi and owner of the Biedenharn Candy Company, made a world changing decision. In order for his customers outside downtown Vicksburg to have Coca-Cola, he had his brother Herman put Coca-Cola in a bottle making the Biedenharn Candy Company the first to ever bottle Coca-Cola. Today, Coca-Cola is sold in more than 200 countries.

 

Under Joe's leadership, his brothers, sons, and grandsons, established plants in Louisiana, Mississippi, Texas, and Arkansas eventually becoming the ninth largest bottling corporation in the United States.

 

Joe Biedenharn was not defined by his accomplishment of bottling Coca-Cola. Joe was also a vital part of the community of Monroe in the early 20th century.  His kind, gentle, and charismatic personality enabled him to become elected City Commissioner.  As City Commissioner, Joe paved the first streets in Monroe and helped transform Forsythe Park from a fairground to the park we see today."

 

I had a wonderful time exploring the home of the Biedenharn Family, the Gardens and the Bible Museum is filled with treasures.  Joe's only daughter, Emy Lou, lived in the home with her father until his death in 1952 and her own in 1984.  Emy Lou willed her wealth to ensure that the estate would continue long after her death. 

 

The Biedenharn Home was magnificent, still in pristine condition since Emy Lou redecorated the entire home for the second time in the 70's.  With silk wallpaper on both the walls and ceilings to the painted black furniture in the dining room, the home is tastefully decorated and seems untouched.

 

After my tour of the home, gardens and bible museum, where I admired a page from the famous Gutenberg Bible (priceless), I walked back to the gift shop to purchase a bottle of Coke for $.05.   I couldn't leave without my souvenir edition Coke bottle!  After my walk in the gardens, it was just the refreshing drink I needed.  Who doesn't enjoy an ice cold Coke every once in a while? 

 

I'm so glad I was able to enjoy an afternoon exploring some of the past.  I've always loved history.  I'm that girl who quickly turns off the exit when I see a brown "Historic Marker" sign!  This is why sometimes instead of flying home to Nashville, I choose to drive.  There's just so much to see! Today was a good day:) 

 

And, did I mention I hate Pepsi?
 

 

 

"The Mike and Victoria Show" is born!

I'm beyond humbled and excited at how The Lord is bringing more opportunities to further share my faith.  Tomorrow morning at 10am will be a day I'll never forget!

Two months ago, I received a text message from Nikita, my ex-husband (we're friends now!:) telling me that a guy named Mike Carson (a friend of his) would be calling me.  He said, "make sure you answer the phone."  Of course, I am a very curious person, so I asked him why?  He said, "just answer your phone.  He's from a radio station and wants to talk to you."

Sure enough, 15 minutes later, my phone rang.  It was Mike.  He asked if I could meet with him and the General Manager of his station, Mike Downhour.

So, myself and the two Mike's met for lunch.  I found these guys to be two exceptional people, who had one very important thing in common with me.  They love, serve and worship the same Jesus I do!  We also share a love for doing radio.  As you may or may not know, I had my own radio show for 2 years called, "Real Talk".  It was a one hour talk show, where I had the privilege of interviewing guests from politicians to actors to local pastors and so on.  I loved it!  It was an amazing platform to share about causes I believe in and especially my faith.

Surprisingly, both Mike's were fans of "Preacher's Daughters" and had seen the episode where I'm interviewing Kolby on my radio show.  So, they knew I had a little experience in radio.

After getting to know each other and sharing our faith with one another, they offered me an opportunity I just couldn't pass up.  And so, "The Mike and Victoria Show" was born!

Beginning tomorrow morning, five days a week Monday-Friday, from 10am-2pm on 104.3 The Bridge covering central Louisiana, I will be on the air talking about life, interviewing special guests, taking listener questions, sharing great music and especially talking opening, honestly and without reservation about Jesus Christ!

You can listen from anywhere in the world online at 1043thebridge.com!  I'm beyond excited for what lies ahead and all that God has planned for me and my family.  He never ceases to amaze me.

I hope you'll be tuning in!

Chchchchch Changes!

Changes, changes and more changes!  To say this summer has been a whirlwind would be an understatement!  For the sake of my time and yours, here's the very short Reader's Digest version:

Well, I sold my house in 7 days!  Now, I'm in a transition.  I'm thinking of buying a hip loft in downtown Nashville once Kolby graduates.

Here's even bigger news!  All summer, Kolby and her best friend, Sadie, begged me to move to Louisiana for her senior year.  The first time they asked, I laughed.  But, I made a promise to them that I'd pray about it.  I told them if God showed me this was His will, who was I to argue with Him?  Fast forward to August.  Kolby is now doing her senior year in Monroe, Louisiana!  I'm now commuting and living two weeks in Nashville working with two pregnancy centers and two weeks in Monroe, working on several projects there, i.e., an abstinence program, hosting a Christian radio show and many speaking engagements.

The decision to allow Kolby to attend school in Louisiana didn't come easy for me.  Actually, I struggled with letting go and letting God for months.  Finally, I made the decision to trust Him completely with my youngest daughter and to have faith that it was the right thing for her.  I'm continually receiving confirmation that for now, she's in the right place.  She loves her new school, is excelling in every subject and her walk with The Lord has never been stronger.  I couldn't be more proud of her.

Never would I have imagined a year ago that my life would be as it is today.  This summer, we've made life long friendships with people we didn't even know a year ago.  The Lord has truly been working in all the details.

Kendra started her Junior/Senior Year in College several weeks ago in NC and her relationship with her boyfriend, Brandon, is going strong.  I love him!  He passed my test with flying colors!  I would welcome the idea of being related to him one day!  They went to Hawaii and are looking forward to going back and doing mission work.  They are helping each other get to Heaven!  I love that!

Tawni is using her nursing skills to work with brain injury patients and she's doing quite well.  She has such a heart for people and chose the perfect profession that suits her personality to a tee.  She, too, is in a serious relationship and is very happy!  I'm so happy for her.  She deserves the very best.

Teryn and Chad are doing well and Salem just started Pre-K today!  Chad's music school, Pro Music Academy, just launched its second location in Seattle, Washington and it's exploding!  If you want to learn any kind of instrument, how to write songs or receive voice lessons, check out pma.com!  You can't find a better place to learn from.  Now that they offer Skype lessons, you can take them from anywhere in the world!  Teryn's real estate business is booming and she's reaching and breaking all the goals she has set for herself.  Need an agent in Nashville?  Get in touch with Teryn Chapin.  She's the best!  Sold my house in 7 days!

As for me, I'm more content than ever.  My God, my family and my friends are the greatest blessings in my life and I don't take them for granted.  We had an amazing family beach trip in St. George with my brother, sister and their families and already we are planning next years! 

Unfortunately, there've been a few bumps in the road over the summer too, but I've decided to focus on the good and not the bad.  When one door shuts, another door opens.  When friends disappoint and hurt you, God brings more friends into your life to help ease the pain.  All we can do is wish the best for those we truly loved and cared for, accept things for what they are, and move on.  Such is life, I suppose.  Seasons come and seasons go.

FYI:  Kolby and Sadie started a new YouTube Channel called "The New Different".  Each week, they are bringing devotionals, sharing their hearts and interviewing guests.  Their first intro video had over 100,000 views in its first week alone!  Be sure to check it out on YouTube! Just search for Kolby and Sadie and you should be able to locate it.

Please don't forget to follow all of us on twitter, Instragram and our Facebook page.  We'll be posting news when we're able about "Preacher's Daughters" soon!  Thanks for loving the Koloffs!  We love you guys too!

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Tawni's Blog

Since I haven't had a minute to blog lately, I wanted to share with you another great blog that I read.  It's my second daughter, Tawni's, blog.  She writes with passion, conviction and just plain good stuff!

Enjoy!

Here's the link:  thingcalledlivin.blogspot.com

And, yes, I promise my new blog is coming!  Be ready for it because there are HUGE changes in my life and the life of my family.

God bless you!  Go do something for Him today!

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

It has been a crazy, wild, amazingly fun filled, spiritually incredible summer!  I will write soon and update all of you loyal readers!

Please be patient with me.  So much to do, so little time to do it:)

Until we catch up, God's blessings to you all!

Victoria

What a Month!

So many exciting changes are happening in my life!  Change is scary, hard and uncomfortable at times, but I'm doing my very best to trust Him in all things.  When I do that, it sure makes for a more peaceful transition.  My house is going on the market this week and I can't wait to see how quickly it sells.  Trusting the Lord will bring a buyer right away!

We're also preparing for our annual "Family Beach Trip", which begins next week and I can't wait to be with my entire family, including my brother, sister, their kids and special friends too! It's always the highlight of our entire year when we get to be together for fun, fun, and more fun!

I apologize that I haven't written in a few weeks, but we've been incredibly busy!  For one, Kolby left for a week long camp in Louisiana, where her life was forever changed!  It was one of the greatest experiences she's ever had in her life and she's still talking about it.

I had the privilege of speaking at the camp on the last day to the high school campers and witnessed over 25 teens accept Jesus Christ as their Savior at the end of my message.  God is so good!  I am humbled how He continues to use me, in spite of myself.  I know I'm not worthy, but He sure is.

On the last day of camp, Kolby made the decision to be baptized!  I was honored that I could be there to witness her emersion into water proclaiming her love and desire to serve Jesus!  As a mother, there are no words to describe watching your child make the decision on her own to serve God with her life.  I was truly blessed.

If you're looking for a camp that's annointed and whose staff members and leaders are appointed by Him, I absolutely endorse and recommend Camp Ch-Yo-Ca in Calhoun, LA.  Kolby loved it so much, made lifelong friends and can't wait to go back next year!

After camp was over, Kolby and I were invited to stay as guests for several more days and spent time with some amazing, wonderful and generous people, the Howard and Robertson families. They treated Kolby and I like family and were gracious to us during our entire stay.  They made us feel so welcome. 

Our time with both of these families were some of the most comfortable, relaxed days I've had in a long time.  They opened up their beautiful homes to us and literally made us feel right at home.  We were invited and blessed to attend a really cool "Sweet 16" Party and it was a blast!  The gals at Junk Gypsy did all the decorating for her party and there is no way to describe how incredible this party was!  I've never seen anything like it in my entire life! If you want a unique, one-of-a-kind party, you want to check them out!  Kolby also went mud digging(?), tubing and even target shooting!  She had the time of her life!  Now, my little city girl is daily begging me to move to Louisiana! I think the Lord knew how much Kolby needed this trip.  He truly blessed her with special friendships and she misses all of her new friends very much.  We worshipped together on Sunday morning and were so blessed by their church service and family.  I even (unknowingly) ate crawfish for the first time and loved it!  I seriously can't write enough about our time there.  We made great, lifelong new friendships and are looking forward to our next visit.   Here are just a few pictures from our visit.  Good times with great people!

So much is coming in the next month alone! We'll be going on vacation, moving to a new place, Kolby's going on a missions trip to the Dominican Republic and I'm off to Missouri for a week long women's conference. Whew! I'm tired just thinking about it.  But, God is good and He sustains us.  Life may be busy right now, but it's also very exciting!

God has so much in store for all of us.  I hope you'll learn to completely trust Him with everything in your life.  This past year has been a crazy ride for the Koloff Family and it's probably going to get even crazier.  We are receiving more and more invitations to speak and there is nothing I'd rather do than share what God has done in my life with others.  Without Him, I don't know where I'd be.  I encourage you to stop whatever you're doing and ask God to reveal to you His plan for your own life.  If He doesn't show you right away, trust that He will in His time.  My life is not perfect by any means, but I do serve a perfect God.  He's there waiting for you too.  I still receive countless letters about how our little show is helping you or your family.  That blesses me more than anything.  I pray that one day soon through my travels, I'll have the opportunity to meet each one of you.  Until then, keep Him first and never forget that He's crazy about you!

So many of you are writing and asking about Season 2.  I wish I could tell you more, but I'm not at liberty to do that yet.  But, I'll say this, I think you're going to be very happy about what's coming!

I'll write again soon, but until then, Happy Summer PD Fans!  We miss you too!

A Night at the Fontanel

In the past six months, our lives have changed forever.  God has blessed us with many opportunities and we aren't taking them for granted.

Last night was another one of those times.  We were privileged to spend an entire evening at The Fontanel Mansion in Nashville, TN.  This is the former home of Barbara Mandrell and her family.  They built this amazing, 27,000 square foot log home in 1988 and lived there until they sold it in 2002.  The two music moguls who bought the home have turned it into a "museum" of sorts.  On the 130 acres, you can attend concerts, hike, bike, zip line, and tour the house.  The place is incredible and I highly recommend you make a trip there!  Your entire family will enjoy it. 

We not only ate dinner in the family kitchen, but sat at the family's original dinner table overlooking this magnificient property.  After dinner, the girl's and I got ready in Barbara's mirrored bathroom and had our make up and hair done in her dressing room.  I even used one of her toilets!  OK, maybe that was too much information!  It was a night of surreal moments.

We were there to celebrate an incredible event in our family, which you'll find out about soon:).  The girls and I were so blessed to hang with Jaime Dudney, Barbara's only daughter, who works on the property.  She gave us a personal tour and shared many stories of her mother.  At 13, Barbara toured with Johnny Cash, June Carter Cash, George Jones and Patsy Cline!  For those of you too young to remember these legends, you'll want to youtube them.  These are the artists who've inspired people like Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, Tim McGraw, Kenny Chesney and so many more!

I personally enjoyed my time with Jaime so much.  We're already making plans to have dinner soon.  She was so sweet, real and normal and I appreciated that about her.  You'd never know she grew up so privileged, as there's nothing snobby or pretentious about her.  The owners are lucky to have her working there.  Who better to take you on a tour of Barbara Mandrells' home than Barbara Mandrell's daughter herself, who actually lived there for 15 years!  I'm grateful the Lord has brought another new friend into my life!

The staff and management at The Fontanel Mansion are second to none.  They were absolutely incredible.  If you've been looking for a place to get married, renew wedding vows, have an anniversary party or any family event, you've found it!  Our entire experience was beyond words.  This home has God's handprints everywhere you look.  The Mandrell/Dudney Family are a strong faith based, Christian family and you sense that as you walk the hallways of this magnificent home.  I can't say enough good things about our night.  The food was delicious, the ambiance soothing and you felt like you were at "home". 

As I looked out the window of the beautiful mansion, I stood in awe of all that God's done and is doing in my family.  Nikita and I are on friendly terms, the girls are thriving in their careers and school, my son-in-law's music school, Pro Music Academy, is exploding and my granddaughter, Salem?  Well, she's just my heart walking around!  I'm excited to take a front row seat to witness what He's going to do next!

Thank you Lord for my wonderful family and another amazing experience. I love you beyond words.

Happy Birthday Salem Sophia!

Four years ago today, the lives of me and my family changed forever.  It was the day that Teryn and Chad welcomed their daughter, my granddaughter, Salem Sophia, into the world.  I was blessed to have been asked to witness her birth and being in the room as my oldest daughter gave birth to her first child was beyond anything I could have ever imagined.

Since that day, my life has never been more full.  Even when I'm having a bad day, all I need to do is call that little girl and talk to her.  She tells me about her day or asks, "When are you coming over, Mimi?" 

She changed my relationship with Teryn and made it better.  She brought healing into our family that we needed at the time.  God's timing is perfect.  Grandchildren are God's rewards for parents to enjoy after experiencing the toddler and teenage years!

Happy Birthday, Salem Sophia.  Your Mimi loves you high as the sky, deep as the sea and all the air in between.

Now, let's go have that "Beach Pool Party" that you wanted!

I love you, my Lil Pooks:)

Something Wonderful Happened this Week!

This past Thursday during my radio show, "Real Talk", (airing on FOXSports Radio, 910Theduck.net), my show crashed.  That means, the system went down and we were off the air.  Twice.  Here's why this is fantastic news!

Never in the station's history has this ever happened!  The listenership for my show is growing so fast, the system just couldn't handle the overload, hence crashing. Yes, this is a great problem and one we hope to resolve before my next show on Thursday.

I wanted to take this time to personally thank those of you who've become loyal listeners by tuning in each Thursday from 4-5pm (Central) online at http://wmrb.streamon.fm/# .

This "problem" is forcing us to look for solutions.  I'm working right now on future possibilities to expand the show.  I'll keep you informed on how that progresses!

It's so exciting to witness how the Lord uses media to reach others with messages of hope and redemption.  It is even more humbling that He chooses to use me, but He redeemed me and I love sharing that hope with others!  Don't know about you, but He still has much more work to do where I'm concerned.  We are all works in progress!  I may not be who I need to be, but I'm definitely not who I used to be:).

God loves us just the way we are, just too much to leave us that way!  Thanks again for tuning in and be sure to mark your calendars for this Thursday at 4pm(c) online at http://wmrb.streamon.fm/# for more "Real Talk!"

Until then, remember to "KEEP IT REAL!"

Viewer Questions

I've been receiving many questions from viewers everyday through my website, email or on social media. 

Two of the questions that have proved to be the most frequently asked, I've decided I'm going to answer through my blog.

#1 - Is Nikita Teryn and Tawni's biological father? 

No, Nikita is not their biological father.   Teryn and Tawni's biological father abandoned us when Teryn was 3 and Tawni was just 8 months old.  He rarely saw them, if at all, throughout their childhood and paid child support for only 1 year after our divorce.  Nikita and I were the ones who put food on the table and a roof over their heads.  In my opinion, Nikita is the only father they've ever had.  They feel the same way.  This is why I say "sperm doesn't make you a father."  Any man can "make" a baby, it takes a real man to be a father.  Their father had every opportunity to be involved in their lives.  He chose not to be.  It was his loss because they are amazing women. 

#2  - Did you give birth to all four of your daughters?

Yes, I gave birth to all four of my girls.  I got married the first time when I was 16, I wasn't pregnant, I was just naive and stupid!  I was pregnant with my first daughter, Teryn, two years later, at had her when I was 18.  I gave birth to Tawni three years later at the age of 21.  After their biological father and I divorced, I married Nikita four years later.  Two years after Nikita and I were married, we had our first daughter, Kendra, who was born in 1992.  Kolby came four years later in 1996. 

God bless you and thanks for being so interested in our family!

"Preachers Daughters" Season Finale Episode!

First of all, I must say thank you to all the loyal viewers of our show!  You have supported, loved and encouraged us with your hundreds of beautiful messages. The testimonies we've received from viewers has been unbelievable!  Just what we'd prayed for and we are humbled and forever grateful to all of you.  It has been a long ride, but one that we wouldn't have missed for anything!  The girls' and I had a blast doing this show!  If it's possible, it brought us even closer together.  We shared tears, laughter and arguments, but through it all, our love never waned and we are better today because of the experience!  Thank you again so much for falling in love with our family and taking this ride with us.  I came to love this precious show.  My prayer is that it will continue to help others, show the love of Christ and remind people that none of us are perfect, but we are forgiven.  I applaud Thinkfactory Media and Lifetime TV for showing bravery in making a show like this one.  I believe it's going to pay off in eternal ways.  I will always remember Season 1 with fond memories, excluding Ep 1 that is!  Ok, now on with the recap!

The Coleman Family:  Taylor is 18!  It's what she's been looking forward to all season long and now the day is here.  It's been precious to watch Taylor grow throughout Season 1 and even more so to witness Ken's grip slowly letting go.  When Ken cried during his interview, we cried right along with him.  It reminded me that the day of my youngest leaving will be here soon enough and I, well, I can't even go there right now.  I'm blessed to call Ken, Marie and Taylor our friends and look forward to hearing about what's coming next for their family.  Keep Ken in your prayers as he struggles with his health.  

The Perry Family:  So proud of Olivia.  Her baptism was so moving.  Kolby and I cried and celebrated along with the Perry Family as Olivia made this public committment to her Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  I'm so blessed that this family's story touched the lives of so many young people who are or have been in crisis pregnancies.  It's never too late to turn your life around and Olivia proved that to everyone.  I love the Perry's and count it a privilege to call them friends.

Oh, the Koloffs:  I couldn't be more proud of my family and the people they are.  My girls' are unique, wonderful human beings.  I'm truly blessed to be their mother.  There are times I sit back and just stare at them when they're not looking and wonder how I ever could have been so lucky to have raised such amazing people who turned out so good, in spite of me and my misgivings.  But, I did.  They are exactly who you've come to know them to be throughout the show.  They are passionate, compassionate, loving, God fearing women who are intelligent and giving.

Kolby's date with Micah was precious.  I truly love that young man. They are getting along very well and continuing to keep their boundaries in check.  I'm so proud of how mature and respectful both of them have been regarding their relationship with eachother and with their parents.  They are 1st class teenagers and I'm glad to hear from so many of you that you look up to both of them as a great example of what Christian dating should look like.

Family Dinner?  I laughed so hard listening to everyone throwing everything on the table.  It was comical.  I had forgotten some parts of that night, but watching it on TV reminding me of how intense that night got.  But, when all is said and done, we are family.  The girls and I mess up and even hurt eachother sometimes, but we forgive and we move on.  That's who we are. 

Now that Season 1 has ended, I can tell you that I was so disappointed about a couple scenes we shot that didn't make "the cut".  The grand opening of our newest pregnancy center and my abortion testimony.  This made me incredibly sad and a little angry.  I was told it was too controversial and had to be pulled at the last minute.  I didn't understand this because I never took a political stand or made a judgement on the abortion issue.  I only told my story and how my abortion affected me.  I cried when I heard it wouldn't be aired.  We filmed the entire grand opening celebration of the center in Spring Hill and you weren't able to see one of the most moving scenes we filmed when I shared my complete abortion testimony with Kolby.  It was probably one of the most powerful moments the crew caught on camera, yet noone will get to see it.  She was so loving and gracious to me.  There's no doubt in my mind that it could have helped so many.  I also believe you'd have gotten to know me much better and understood more where I come from in regards to what I teach and believe.  I am attaching a shorter version of my testimony to this blog, so feel free to watch it.  Maybe some day in the future, Lifetime will decide to air that "lost" episode.  A girl can hope and pray!

Season 1 is behind us now.  I've been asked this question a hundred times since last night, "Is there going to be a S2?"  Well, all I can tell you right now is, we'll just have to wait and see.  For now, thank you again on behalf of the girl's and I.  Trust me, we are going to miss you too.

Until we meet again, take care and always remember that Jesus loves you and so do we!  We are the Koloff Women, one and only:)

Here's the link to my abortion testimony. I hope you take the time to watch it.  If you or someone you know has had an abortion, there's help for you!  Go to my website, VictoriaKoloff.com or www.ChooseHealing.org to hear more about an upcoming conference I'm involved with in helping men and women receive healing after experiencing an abortion.  God bless you!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFYssR4Ypmk

Episode 7 Recap!

I fall more in love with our little show every week!  Our producers at Thinkfactory Media and Lifetime have put together a beautiful show!  I'm truly humbled by those of you watching who are feeling the same way.  The bible says that God's Word shall not go out in void, so knowing each week millions of people are wanting to learn more about God is so amazing!  I know my Father in Heaven will meet you wherever you are.  You don't get good to get God, you get God and then become better.  He doesn't care how you show up when you find Him, He just wants you to show up!  OK, on with the recap.

The Coleman Family - You have NO idea how happy I was that someone, other than me, was delivering a purity message!  I must admit though that I thought some of those kids were way too young to have been in that class.  And they say mine is graphic?! Wow, this one made even my sex talk seem mild!  I'm not saying it wasn't a good "sex" talk, I'm just saying that I can now sympathize a little more with those of you who think mine's a little too much.  And this is the reason I always let parents know that my talks are rated PG-13.  I leave it up to the parent's to decide if their child is mature enough to hear it.  I laughed so hard when Taylor said, "Kissing is cheating on Jesus? I've been cheating on Jesus this whole time and didn't even know it!"  Hilarious!  I loved the Father/Daughter Dance with Taylor and Pastor Coleman.  It was precious.  I grow prouder of Taylor every week:).

The Perry Family - The Perry Girls are stunning.  I'm not surprised they were asked to model.  I  can understand that Mark was a little bit taken back by the pictures.  He's their Dad.  I wouldn't expect anything less.  But, I still love how he and Cheryl continue to show grace to their daughters.  They are so soft spoken.  It would be an interesting evening to have them over for a Koloff Family Dinner.  Poor things, they'd never get a word in!  We'd scare them to death!

Then, there's The Koloffs - Oh, the dreaded "tattoo episode"!  This wasn't the first time I've dealt with Tawni getting a tattoo.  Her first one came around six years ago.  Several months before Teryn got married, she got a tattoo on her wrist, but hid it from me until Teryn's wedding day.  She didn't have a choice of telling me because the Maid of Honor dress was sleeveless!  I'll never forget when she brought me into Teryn's bedroom and said, "Mommy, I have something to tell you."  That statement brings chills to every mother!  She pulled her sleeve up for her big "reveal".  It was a tattoo that said "Jesus" on her wrist.  Hard to get upset about that, but I did.  I cried.  Partly because it was a tattoo and partly because it was beautiful.  Then, we had a fantastic wedding and all was fine.  Not saying I liked it, but she's still my Tawni Bear and I like her...a lot, a lot, a lot!

Then, a couple years ago, she got another one.  This time on her shoulder.  It's a tattoo of my mom's favorite flower.  I cried again.

Now, once again, as you witnessed on tonight's episode, there's a third.  What you saw on tonight's episode was as real as it comes. From the tattoo, to my reaction and even the text that I sent.  Trust me, I tried my best to wash that thing off!

I wasn't enthused about Kolby being at a tattoo parlor, but I'm glad she experienced her first (and hopefully last!) visit with her sisters.  As you could see in the "reveal" scene, I knew something was up.  I know my girls well and it's hard for them to keep surprises from me.  I cried when Tawni showed me her tattoo because it made me sad that she keeps marking her body with something as permanent as a tattoo.  Let me set this straight.  Never once, not even once, did I question Tawni's heart or motive for getting this tattoo.  It wasn't in any way because I thought she is away from God or backslidden, for gosh sakes!

Being a person with so many regrets in my own life, I just don't want to see her regretting inking her body up and not being able to do anything about it.  We are not the same people today we will be 5 years from now.  All of us continually evolve and change.  Our opinions can change, our style, likes and dislikes.  Tattoos are permanent.  Sure, you can go through expensive and painful removals, but that's a high price to pay for something you may do "in the moment".   There's no way to escape regrets in life, I know that.  But, the best thing about mistakes?  They make us wiser.

The bottom line for me is that I think covering your body with tattoos is just not a good idea.  But, we're all different and just because I couldn't see myself ever getting a tattoo doesn't mean that Tawni's going to feel the same way.  I've come to accept that all four of my girls' are unique, just as the Lord made them.   They aren't me.  They have different opinions about certain things than I do and tthey stand up for those.  That's the way I raised them to be, so I can't complain now, nor would I want to. 

I'm not too worried about Kolby getting one right now.  She can't even handle having her blood drawn!  But, like she said, I've got two years to talk her out of it or get used to the idea!

In my Christian walk, I've met lots of Christians.  Some of them have been covered in ink from head to toe, yet show more grace, mercy and the love of Christ than others who've never gone "under the needle".   Some of you want to start throwing condemnation on Tawni for getting a tattoo and using Scripture to do it.  I get that.  It's true that there are references about tattoos in the bible.  It's in Leviticus.  But, there's also Scripture in that same book that tell us not to cut our hair or wear clothing made of two different materials.

What I want to know is this.  I'm much more interested in the condition of Tawni's heart than I am with what she puts on her body.  And she has a heart that truly loves God.  She is one of the most generous, compassionate and giving people I've ever known. 

Tawni's tattoo and the meaning behind it are beautiful.  It was hard to argue with that?  A tattoo expressing her love for God, me and her sisters?  Wow.  What you weren't able to see on this episode was the moment she and I shared after she explained it.  I cried again, but this time because I was so touched by how much we mean to her.

Tawni told me later, off camera, that it broke her heart when she saw my reaction, so she made me a promise.  She said she wouldn't get another one until after I'm gone.  Hopefully, by the time I leave this earth, she'll be too old to want one!  But, if so, I asked her to put an image of my face on her back!  I was only kidding though because I wouldn't want her to have my face plastered on her body the rest of her life!  Or would I?  LOL!

Who knows?  Maybe one day, I'll go with her and we can get matching "mother-daughter" tattoos?!  Well, probably not!

Until next week.

I Miss You Everday

Eight years ago today, I lost my father.  His death was so unexpected and one of my most painful experiences.  I would give so much to be able to pick up the phone and call you, but I cant.

My dad became a Christian literally days before he died, so I know I will see him again.  But, I still miss him everyday.  Cherish your parents and those you love.  You never know when they'll be gone.

To you, Dad, I'll love and miss you forever.

Love,

Your "Baby Girl"

Episode 6 - Recap

Tonight's episode was a little intense.  Between Pastor Coleman's illness, Pastor Mark and Cheryl's convictions about Halloween and our first Halloween Party, it got a little crazy!   For us, Halloween just means dressing up, being with family, eating lots of candy and then paying for it the next day while we nurse stomach aches.  On with the recap.

The Coleman Family:  First of all, thank God that Pastor Ken is out of the hospital and doing well!  We are praying and believing God for his complete healing.  He's such a wonderful man.  I was so impressed and proud of Taylor for the decisions she made on tonight's episode.  I've been telling you guys to she was awesome!  She's a young woman with a precious, pure heart who loves her family and Jesus.  It was so cool to watch her leading worship, what a voice!  I believe God is going to do mighty things through Taylor.  My heart broke for Marie tonight.  I hated seeing her cry.  What a strong woman she is.  Pastor Ken is blessed.  I fall more in love with the Coleman's every week! 

The Perry Family:  To trick or treat or not to trick of treat?  That was the question.  I admire this family very much.  I highly respect that Mark and Cheryl stick to their convictions, yet they didn't judge Olivia when she decided to take Eden out to trick or treat.  Their harvest gathering may have freaked some of you out, but I've been at services like that.  They can be very powerful and healing.  I learned tonight through this family that we do have to allow our children to make their own decision.  Olivia stood her ground and made a decision based on what she thought was best for Eden.  Whether others agreed with her decision or not, it was her decision to make.  There are times I don't agree with Teryn and Chad about decisions they make pertaining to my granddaughter, but she's their daughter, not mine.  It was sweet that Olivia's sister supported her and went with her trick or treating.  Sisters are awesome!  I'm blessed that my girls have eachother.  I fully understand that some things you want to talk about with a sister, not your mother.  I'm not offended by that whatsoever.  They are blessed to have eachother.  This family continues to make me go "ahhh" every week!  Love you Perry's!

The Koloffs:  When I saw the previews for this episode and the girls trying on costumes, I thought, "Oh, no, what did my girls do?!"  But, when I watched it, I couldn't stop laughing!  They had such a great time and who doesn't like dressing up for fun?  I won't lie, some of those outfits were a little much, but I know my girl's hearts and nobody got hurt.  My only complaint was I wished I'd been there with them!

Many years ago, I admit now, that we went a little overboard to "clean" our house out of anything our church deamed evil!  I'm not talking just spirits (although we did that too), I'm talking about CD's and Movies!  I loved my 70's classics, yet I was encouraged to get rid of anything that wasn't Christian.  I think I cried when I had to say good bye to Bread, Eagles and Chicago!  Teryn and Tawni had to gather up all their Disney Movies for the bonfire.   They never understood why (I didn't either really).  It makes me sad to think about it.  Looking back, I want to laugh and cry for what we put those girls through.

Here's a little background information.When Nikita and I got saved, which means we accepted Jesus Christ into our hearts as our Savior, the church we attended at the time believed some practices were unacceptable, one being Halloween any movies over PG, any kind of music other than Christian and so on.  Although, I rarely agreed, I didn't want to rebel, so I caved to the church and Nikita's ban on Halloween.  Honestly, it made me sad, but at the time, I felt it was the right thing to do as a new Christian. I figured these people knew more than I did because they'd been in church a lot longer than me.   Since then I've met some really nasty, wicked, judgemental, so called "seasoned" Christians, who know a lot less about God's love, grace and mercy than newer Christians do!  I've come to the conclusion that it doesn't matter how long you've been a Christian, it's what's in your heart that counts.  But, that's a whole other message.

I grew up trick or treating.   So, before the Halloween Ban, my girl's had always been allowed to participate in Halloween.   We'd be so excited hunting for the best costume!  Each Halloween, we couldn't wait to get dressed up and visit the neighbors to show off their costumes.  For us, it was all about what we wore and the free candy!  I loved seeing the faces on the neighborhood kids when they were filled with excitement as they knocked on our door! Halloween never changed who we were or our love for God.  As for me, I just wanted the Reese Cup's and a Snickers Bars!  But, I want to make something clear, I respect others decisions about Halloween and whether they choose to participate or not.  I'm not judging the Perry's or anyone else that chooses not to go trick or treating.  And I know that some parts of Halloween have been turned into evil by others.  So, don't hear what I'm not saying.  This is a family's decision and noone, trick or treaters, or non trick or treaters, should be judged for their decision.  If those of us who don't feel conviction about dressing up, having a party or trick or treating are wrong, then we have Someone much bigger and better to answer to than our critics one day.  Until then, there's a lot more important things to fight about than Halloween.  How about the abortion issue for one?  I digressed again.  On with the recap!

In the girls' scene at the costume shop, Teryn references the church people coming to "burn our stuff."  I remember that day well.  So, when Teryn curtsied and said, "Hello, we are here (from the church) to burn your things", I fell on the floor laughing!  Dear God, I was so confused back then and I thank you God for Your deliverance!  I loved how Kendra looked out for her sisters.  Admittedly, I'm so thankful they didn't show up in those outfits.

I'm not a fan of horror movies (although it's weird that I admit loving the Walking Dead Series), so when Kolby asked to go to the haunted house with her friends, I told her I didn't think it was a good idea.  Aside from the Lord, I know my daughter better than anyone else on the planet.  I knew this was not a good idea.  She pressed to go, so I finally decided she was old enough to make her own decision about this.  I reminded her how much she hates stuff like that (she doesn't watch horror flicks either), but she insisted she'd be ok.  Watching her reaction at the haunted house made me sad for her, but I couldn't help myself.  I laughed a few times too! As our kids grow up, I understand that we must let them make their own decisions and pray they'll learn from them.  I don't think there's any question that this is one event Kolby won't be repeating anytime in the future, if ever.  Kolby suffers from ashthma, so when she started having trouble breathing, that wasn't an act.  I'm praising God that she didn't have a full blown attack and make it to the "light" of the fire.  I don't understand why people pay other people to scare the crap out of them, but to each their own. 

I loved seeing my precious granddaughter Salem on the show tonight.  Isn't she adorable?!  She's wrapped around my fingers and knows it.  Trick or Treating with Nikita was a little uncomfortable at first, but by the time the party rolled around, it was cool.  What I didn't realize was how short and risque that nurse outfit was till I saw it on TV!  While I was getting ready, I kept asking the girls, "Are you sure this isn't too much?"  They were like, "No, Mommy, you look awesome!"  Liars:)!  If I had it to do over again, I would have NEVER worn the nurse's outfit.  It was a little more than I would have liked.  But, it's too late now.  I'll just have to learn from it.  You should have seen the other one!  I love the whole nurse idea and giving out the test results, I just wish I would have used better judgement with the outfit.  My bad.   I can't take all the credit for the STD test prank either.  One of my closest frirends, Andrea, helped me come up with that idea.  I thought it was hilarious and fun.  Kolby's friends loved it, but I didn't mean to embarass her.  I need to be a little more careful about my actions in the future.  Embarassing Kolby is not something I enjoy, believe it or not.  My sense of humor seems to be humor me more than anyone else!

I was genuinely shocked when the guys walked in shirtless with their swim trunks on.  Besides the fact that it was freezing outside, I couldn't believe they'd show up at my house like that!  It was funny, though.  The party was a success and everyone had a great time. 

When I walked outside and caught Kolby and her friends TP'ing my house, I wanted to bust out laughing, but I couldn't!  I had to seem a little ticked off so they wouldn't think I approved, but I thought it was adorable.  And if TP'ing my house is the worst thing Kolby does to prank me, I can live with that!  The bigger prank was sticking me with cleaning it up and leaving me alone with Nikita to do it.  Seriously?! To this day, every time I mow my grass, I find pieces of toilet paper!

Another great episode!  Next week, it's all about the ink.  I'm not a fan, never liked them, especially on girls.  And even more so on my own daughters.  But, as you'll see next week, I had no power to stop it. 

See you on Lifetime!

Episode 5 - Recap

Another great episode!  I grow more proud of this show every week.  Last night during a Reese Cup run for Kolby and I, the cashier looked at me and said, "Hey, I was watching TV last night and for whatever reason decided to watch this show on Lifetime.  As I was watching, I said to my husband, I know her! She shops at our store all the time!"  She went on to ask me if I'd lost weight! Apparently, she said I looked heavier on the show than in person!  I assured her that I haven't lost weight, but that it must be true the TV adds 10 lbs!  Anyway, she went on to tell me that she'd decided not to watch the show based on the previews she'd seen a month earlier.  Then she said something I've been hearing a lot lately.  "Your show is nothing like I thought it would be!  I'm so glad I took the time to watch it.  You guys are really teaching something through your show and I loved it! I really really liked it!"  That made my night.  I have a challenge for those of you who've done the same thing this woman admitted to doing.   If you're still judging the show based on something you saw in a preview or heard from someone else who hasn't watched, I dare you to take the time to watch it.  You don't have to tell anybody, just wait till noone's home!  Go on, I double dare you!  On with the recap.

The Coleman Family - Once again, we see Taylor going behind her parent's back when she and her friends decide to participate modeling for Demotious'(?) CD Cover.  What would Pastor Ken and Marie say?  I know what I'd say, but I'll save that for when I see Taylor in person again.  I'll start with this, "Girl, what are you thinking?!"  Side note: Girls, be careful what "pictures" you take with any guy! Even though you send in text messages, put on Facebook or any social media.  They could come back to haunt you later!  I digressed.  Ok, so Taylor's sister, Kendra, tries her best to help Taylor listen and explain to her that lying and sneaking behind her parents backs is wrong, but Taylor, like many teenagers, decides to do what she wants, without any regard to anyone else.  Typical teenage behavior.  It doesn't make it right and I'm not condoning it, I'm just calling it what it is.  While Taylor is busy posing, we see her mother, Marie, frantically calling her cell because Pastor Ken has been taken to the hospital.  But, like lots of teens, Taylor doesn't answer her phone.  I know exactly how that feels!  I absolutely hate when Kolby doesn't answer her phone!  I don't expect her to stop anything she's doing to answer, but if a parent calls you, you need to answer or call them back!  Especially if your parents (like Kolby's) are paying your phone bill!  Anyway, when Taylor finally gets word that her father's been taken to the hospital, she's genuinely crushed.  It's unfortunate that sometimes it takes a tragedy to get our attention.  Taylor showed true remorse tonight for some of her actions.  I believe that what's going on with Taylor isn't just a "guilt" trip, but a true change in her heart for what she's put her parents through.  It was emotional to witness her transformation before our eyes.  I love how Jesus pierces our heart to get our attention!  I teared up during Taylors heartfelt, beautiful prayer.  Pastor Coleman is dealing with health issues that he will reveal in his time.  Please pray for him.  My assessment of Taylor is the same.  She's a sweet, precious young woman just trying to find her way.

The Perry Family - Frankie?  Oh, Frankie? Where for art thou Frankie?  I'd like to sit down and have 5 minutes with that guy!  Girls these days struggle with self esteem issues everyday.  I'm convinced that God is so disappointed in men and the way they've treated women.  Believe it or not, God called men to a higher standard than this.  Guys like Frankie who tell a girl (woman) who manipulate someone, tell her what he knows she wants to hear, whether it's true or not, only to find out later they were lying snakes (I've had my share too) disgust me.  I felt horrible for Olivia.  She opened up for the first time since giving birth to Eden, allows herself to become vulnerable, even bringing him into her home to break bread with her family and then he shuts her out of his life!  Then, come to find out he's already got a girlfriend!?  Olivia, he doesn't deserve you.  As Forrest would say, "Run, Olivia, Run!"  It may hurt right now, Olivia, but Frankie showing his true colors is a blessing in disguise.  And I absolutely loved seeing Cheryl in action tonight (I want to see more of her!).  She is the kind, gentle mother everyone dreams of having!  Mark is a blessed man and here's the beauty of that statement.  He knows it and cherishes the women in his life.  It is quite obvious that Mark has his priorities straight.  Pastors should take notes!

Now, The Koloff Family - One of the most asked questions this week?  Did you know Nikita was at the door?  I had a suspicion that he was, but once again, my family did a great job of keeping their little scheme a secret.  The viewer literally witnessed one of the first one-on-one conversations we've had in years.  Even before our divorce was final and we were living under the same roof, we didn't speak.  We slept in separate rooms a year before he actually moved out.  We barely spoke even years before that, so it's safe to safe that this time together was the first in easily well over 10 years.

Although I was nervous and it was uncomfortable, I'm very thankful that I decided to go.  Nikita has made it perfectly clear that his way of healing from our divorce was not to speak to me all these years.  All of us deal with loss in our own way.  There were many times I called him over the years to talk about the girls and he'd never call me back.  Now, I get it.  I'm glad he was able to explain it to me.  Communication is my gift (I like to talk, duh!), by his admission, it was never his.  I keep hearing that night referred to as a "date".  Well, I don't call it that.  For me, it was more of a "healing" dinner.  That dinner lasted almost 2 hours, yet you only saw a couple of minutes!  There were many more heated, awkward moments that you may never see.  The girls' and I watch the show together every week.  Since it's been several months since that scene was shot, I couldn't possibly remember our entire conversation.  As we watched along with you, my heart broke for them as they sat and heard their father stumble through my question about his priorities. 

One of the greatest mistakes I've seen men (and women) in ministry make is putting everyone else above their family.  This is not God's will!  Yes, the girls were hurt by what Nikita couldn't say, but I wouldn't say they were surprised.  When Nikita and I were married, sometimes it felt like we were roommates more than husband and wife.  It was a very sad, unhappy marriage and we made our family miserable.  It's tragic, but too many people in ministry put their families last.  I will say this again, this is not God's heart! Throughout our marriage, Nikita traveled extensively preaching the gospel. He is one of the best preachers, to this day, that I've ever heard!  But, our marriage and family suffered because of it.  I don't believe this was ever God's intention when He called Nikita to preach.  He was an excellent financial provider and still is the most discipled man I've ever known.  Many times, by Nikita's admission, I had to play dual roles as mother and father.  That's not God's design.  It's sad to say, but some people in ministry believe they're doing the right thing by putting ministry before family.  In my opionion, they're mistaken. I do want to make something clear here.  Nikita is not a bad man.   He loves his daughters.  And he wasn't the only one in this marriage.  It took two of us to destroy it.

Some things may never change and there comes a time when you just have to accept that.  Even when we're not the priority we should be to someone else, we are a high priority to God.

During that scene Tuesday night, my son-in-law walked out of the room.  He was very angry.  He called me the next day to tell me how sorry he was for me and the girls.  He went on to explain how his own pastor father would cancel speaking/preaching engagements just to be at his baseball games or other events that were important to him.  He went on to say that he appreciated his dad so much more for placing his family above his ministry.   

Again, let me stress this point.  I don't want to sound like I'm trying to throw Nikita under the bus because that is not my intention. Our marriage failed because both of us made mistakes.  But, this particular episode is an opportunity for all of us in ministry to realize that God places high priority on our families and we should also.  I think if you can't do this, you should stay single.  It's my opinion that the correct priorities are God, family, others then self.  You may differ in that opinion, but this is my blog so I get to share mine! :)

I've had countless emails since Tuesday night's episode from wives and children who've told me they know exactly how the girl's and I feel.  They've told me that they cried through that whole scene because that's how their preacher husband/father treats them.  It's heartbreaking.  Although to some, it may seem admirable that a man/woman in ministry sells out to God, and it is, but it isn't Godly to put your wife/husband and children last.  Chad went on to tell me that when he and Teryn were alone  after the show, he told her how sorry he was that she grew up knowing she wasn't her dad's priority (unfortunately for Teryn and Tawni, they weren't a priority to their bio dad either).  Chad said he held her and made her a promise.  He promised her that she and Salem would always know they came second only to God.  That blessed me.  Your Dad doesn't have to be a pastor to neglect his family.  Lots of fathers neglect their families, so do some mothers.  I meant when I told Nikita that "every girl/woman wants to feel she's a priority in her father/husbands life".  It's the truth.  It's what every girl/woman longs for.  That's how God made females.  If you don't like it, take it up with Him!  Again, I'm very thankful that I went to dinner with him.  My goal is that this is the beginning of moving past the hurt we've caused eachother and starting a new relationship that benefits our children.  Whatever God's plans for Nikita and I will be in our best interest. 

I loved my "tea time" with Kolby and our conversations.  I wanted to make something perfectly clear to her.  They deserve a man who will love them with a love they've never experienced, a man who will cherish them and place their importance only after God.  This is what I believe God's heart is in regards to a man's love for a woman.  I pray their future husband would "lay his life down for her."  She and her sisters deserve the kind of love I've never had.  I truly believe as they continue to seek God's face and His will for their lives, they will one day have that.  And that makes this mother very happy!  I'm convinced that women like me who've searched and searched for this kind of love have continually gotten involved with the wrong men.  When a man pays us the kind of attention we crave, we cling to that man and then pay for it later.  I refuse to allow that to happen to me again.  And I refuse to sit back and do nothing or watch that happen to one of my girls.  I always say, "it is better to be single, than wish you were." 

I've come to terms with the fact that I may never find what I've longed for all my life, but here's what's been liberating for me.  I'm finally ok with that.  I know that I know that I'm all that and more to Jesus Christ and He's more than enough for me. 

Episode 4 - Recap

This show just keeps getting better and better!  I'm so proud of tonight's episode.  Finally, you don't hear me saying anything about sex! What a relief!  I told you I was more than a teenage sex educator!  And here's the great news!  I'm receiving letters everyday from teenagers who want to know God, are rethinking their bad choices and want to change, finding out that even if they've messed up, it's NEVER too late to change, divorced parents realizing how damaging their hatred for eachother has on their children, Christians realizing they don't have to be perfect for God to love them!  And on and on and on.  God is, does and can use media to reach those who are hurting!  On with the recap. 

The Coleman Family:  Taylor, Taylor, Taylor.  I love her spirit.  She is a typical, young teenager who wants to have fun.  But, at what cost?  I was so happy to see Marie more in this episode.  I absolutely loved the dinner with Demotious(?).  It was classic Pastor Ken and he doesn't believe in kissing before marriage?!  He's even more strict than I am!  I loved his questions, "Are you ready to be celibate?"  I fell off my chair laughing.  And a word of advice to the "Demon" boy, when Pastor Ken asks you a question, you need to answer, "Yes Sir or No Sir", not "uh huh" or "yeah"!  Taylor thinks she knows what she wants, but I believe when she's a little older, she's going to realize her Mom and Dad just want what's best for her. It made me so sad when Taylor took off her purity ring and snuck out the window.  I was so very proud of her though for not going with him to the party and only kissing him on the cheek!  You go girl!  Right now, Marie and Ken are making sure this guy is one that deserves to date their daughter and I highly respect that!  Love me some Coleman's!

The Perry Family:  I say this every week, but I love this family too.  There's such a difference among all three families, but the Perry's are just so gentle, kind and quiet. I would say they are the most different compared to my family and the Coleman's when it comes to mannerisms and personalities.    We can be loud, sometimes obnoxious and very opinionated.  The Perry's are just so meek and mild.  I think I enjoy them so much because I'm taking notes!  I love that Mark and Cheryl are checking out this Frankie dude.  Being that he's an old partying buddy would make me nervous too, so I think they are very wise in getting to know him better and confirming his motives are pure.  God can change anyone's heart and behaviors, so I'm not saying Frankie isn't a different guy than the one Olivia knew before at all, but what I am saying is that Mark and Cheryl are being good parents by making sure he's not going to pull Olivia back into her old lifestyle.  Loved the Microchurch tonight.  So of my most amazing times in prayer have been in my home with friends like the Perry's do on Monday nights.  I was very encouraged when Frankie asked if he could come back.  That was precious!  I liked getting to know the other daughters more tonight too.  Look forward to seeing them more.  Love me some Perry's!

And us, The Koloffs:  I loved this episode.  I am so thankful that the viewers are getting to know my awesome family better.  I love mine and Kolby's time together and since Kolby is my last daughter at home, we have a lot of it and we love it!  I love that I'm still the first person she wants to talk to for advice.  For the record, I love Micah!  He is exactly the type of young man that I would hand pick to date Kolby.  His parents have done an outstanding job raising him and his three brothers!  Kolby's even accused me before of liking Micah better than her!  I was heartbroken tonight that Kolby was so confused about dating, but proud that she's praying and asking questions.  She really does want to do what's right.  I haven't been a great example to her and her sisters when it comes to relationships with men.  On top of that, she's witnessed her sisters make mistakes of their own, so I'm not surprised she's being cautious.  I am thankful for that!  If my past mistakes can teach my girls' to do their lives differently than I have, all the pain and heartache I've gone through won't have been in vain.  I've made very wrong, stupid decisions in regards to men and they know it.  I've been honest with them about my mistakes.  I am truly blessed to have great relationships with all my girls.  It's too bad you weren't able to see more of the conversation that took place between Kolby and I or the girl's conversations at Teryn's house.  But, it's TV and we only have an hour!  On top of that, we have to split that time with three families.  I would bet the Perry's and Coleman's feel the same way.

In this episode, you get to know my 27 year old daughter Tawni a little better and hear about her divorce.  Tawni got married when she was 21 years old.  I fought this every step of the way as I'm sure some of you can imagine!  When she called to tell me she'd eloped, I was heartbroken.  I hung up the phone and cried.  I knew he wasn't the man God had for Tawni.  To this day, I regret how much I fought against this relationship.  I'll never know had I kept my mouth shut and taken a step back maybe she would have realized for herself how wrong he was for her and she'd made a different choice.  But, I didn't and she did marry him.  Now, I'll never know.  From the moment I met this guy, I knew he was wrong for her.  He didn't treat her with the respect she deserved and he definitely didn't treat her family with respect either.  When I say he hated me that's an understatement.  He despised me and our entire family.  I think he was threatened by the closeness we shared.  I believe he felt we were an intrusion.  When a guy is trying to ostracize you from your family, that's a pretty good indication of the kind of man he is.  It's been years since they divorced, so I don't wish this guy any ill will and I hope he's changed, but I'm sure glad he's not in our family anymore.  He did not deserve her.  Anyway, Tawni went through a rough time in that marriage, of which it is her place to talk about if she ever chooses to.  It's not my story to tell.    I'm just glad it's over and that no children came from it.  I never said "I told you so" because she didn't need to hear that.  She knew she made a mistake and I believe it's made her much more in tune with what her family has to say about a guy she's interested in.  Noone knows you better than your family, so take heed to their advice.  Had I listened to my girls, I wouldn't have been involved in my last relationship, so it goes both ways.  Tawni's allowed God to heal her heart from her marriage and divorce and she's now in a great place!  I'm so proud of her! 

Divorce doesn't define who Tawni is.  It doesn't define any of us.  Our idenity is in who Christ says we are.  I loved that you were able to see our divorce group meeting in this episode.  Thank you to Teasi and Michelle for being so honest and willing to share their private lives with the world!  Although you weren't able to see much of our group talk, I think you get the idea.  It is my opinion that divorce groups are a great way for men and women to have a safe place to share their struggles and support one another.  Unfortunately for me, I've been divorced 3 times!  I'm more ashamed of those failures than even going through with an abortion.  Divorce sucks.  As Tawni said, it's like a death and you must grieve the loss.  It leaves you scarred, but thank God, His healing is for divorced people too!  At this point in my life, I would be content being single the rest of my life if that's God's plan for me.  Honestly, for the first time in my life, I'm not looking, hoping or dreaming about my Prince Charming!  Please don't misunderstand.  I do believe there are amazing, Godly, wonderful men out there because some of my friends and my own sister are married to them, but so far, I've never found mine.  So, for now, my Prince Charming is Jesus.  He's the only man whose never hurt or betrayed me.  I'm in a better place today than I've ever been and I've placed my future in His hands and in trusting Him completely.  There's such freedom in this!  In time, I trust He'll lead my path, so we'll see what He has in mind for me:).

Every parent must realize that children of divorce dream of reuniting their parents again.  It makes holidays, birthdays, graduations, etc, etc, much easier on everybody, so I'm not surprised the girls would want to pull a "parent trap" trick on me!  Teryn and Tawni did a good job of pretending we were having a girls' night out (you didn't see much of that, but trust me, they did!), but I have to admit I have pretty good instincts.  I started feeling something was up because I know my girls well.  They were acting so, well, sneaky!  So, when the doorbell rang, I had this sense of  "Oh, no, they didn't!"  So many of you are asking what happened, but you'll have to wait til next week to find out.  Honestly, I was so nervous and uncomfortable that I don't even remember much about that night, so I'm looking forward to watching too!

I want to give a shout out to our producers at Thinkfactory Media and to Lifetime for allowing our families to share our faith with you.  Not a day has gone by that I haven't received incredibly inspiring and encouraging emails from viewers!  They bless me beyond words

Please try and remember that the Perry's, Coleman's or the Koloff's are in no way perfect families.  We are finding our way with God's love and help.  You can do the same!  God bless you. 

Preacher's Daughters airs each Tuesday at 10/9c on Lifetime TV