Please note that I've changed my blog url name url to www.RobinVictoria.blogpost.com My given name is Robin Victoria (Robinson). Professionally, I've decided to use my first and middle names from now on. I have my reasons, of which you will know soon enough :) I will also use Robin Victoria for my FOXSports Radio Show, "Real Talk".
Thanks for being faithful readers! So much more to come, I promise. You won't want to miss all the good, bad and ugly going on in my family's life or the hard core thouhts and opinions you may or may not disagree with!
Be blessed friends!
Victoria
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Saturday, May 26, 2012
All Mistakes Are Forgiven.....Every One of Them
I don't think I've ever shared this with my reader's. So, I thought it was past due.
I hope you'll watch. God takes anything the enemy meant for harming or destroying us and turns it into good for His purposes.
I'm a living testimony. Follow the link below.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFYssR4Ypmk
I hope you'll watch. God takes anything the enemy meant for harming or destroying us and turns it into good for His purposes.
I'm a living testimony. Follow the link below.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFYssR4Ypmk
Friday, May 18, 2012
Suicide Sucks
Suicide. I hate that word. It's so mysterious and brings feelings that are very uncomfortable. Yesterday, the cops are saying that one of our friends did it. I just don't know that I believe that.
The times I was around this person, he was always so upbeat, the "life of the party". Constantly taking care of his guests, making sure your wine glass was full and you had enough to eat. It was evident that he wanted you to feel welcome in his home and to have a great time. You'd never have suspected he was dealing with inner demons or depression. He had a beautiful wife and two young daughters, who adored him. This guy absolutely loved entertaining and enjoyed cooking seven course meals for you! His cook-outs were not your typical hot dog and hamburger's. He was funny, incredibly friendly, witty, kind, generous, sweet, light-hearted and had a great laugh. Now, he's dead. Not because he was sick with cancer or in a car accident, but because a bullet ended his life.
I'm so pissed off! I've been thinking about him a lot, remembering how infectious his enthusiasm for life was. Now, I'm picturing his little girl's faces when their mother had to tell them their Daddy was never coming home. I'm feeling so many emotions. Sadness, pity, anger! Did he really do this to his family and if so, how could he do this to them? You could see when you were around him that he loved his family very much. So, why in the hell would he leave them this way?! He couldn't have been in his right mind. There's no way anyone who kills themselves is thinking clearly. His body hadn't died, but had his mind? It had to have been an accident. There is no way this could have been intentional.
I'm feeling guilt. It's deep and puzzling to me because it wasn't like I was one of his closest friends. But, there's this guilt nevertheless. Did a disease called depression kill our friend? If so, maybe I'm angry because noone saw this coming. But, that's not fair either. We can't blame ourselves for choices people make. Can we? Do we look for something or someone to blame because if we can find it, a tragedy like this is easier to take? This guy had a life that was blessed! His family and friends were robbed. I'm so friggin' angry about it!
My heart is heavy with sadness. If he did this deliberately, it's so messed up! There's no taking it back. And if he did do this, it's heartbreaking that he was so distressed and convinced this was his only answer. I know depression is real, an illness. You can only go to a very dark place to believe your only solution is a premature exit.
Here are some facts that have come to light recently. He bought plane tickets for he and his girls to visit family out of the country this week for a 3 week visit! Right before setting out on his walk, he was bidding on e-bay. He had camping trips planned. Does someone really do these things if they're about to kill themselves? I'm more and more convinced that this had to have been a freak, unfortunate accident.
For now, police have ruled his death a suicide. I'm just not so sure. An accident makes much more sense.
So many unanswered questions never to be answered. No matter what, he's gone and it sucks.
The times I was around this person, he was always so upbeat, the "life of the party". Constantly taking care of his guests, making sure your wine glass was full and you had enough to eat. It was evident that he wanted you to feel welcome in his home and to have a great time. You'd never have suspected he was dealing with inner demons or depression. He had a beautiful wife and two young daughters, who adored him. This guy absolutely loved entertaining and enjoyed cooking seven course meals for you! His cook-outs were not your typical hot dog and hamburger's. He was funny, incredibly friendly, witty, kind, generous, sweet, light-hearted and had a great laugh. Now, he's dead. Not because he was sick with cancer or in a car accident, but because a bullet ended his life.
I'm so pissed off! I've been thinking about him a lot, remembering how infectious his enthusiasm for life was. Now, I'm picturing his little girl's faces when their mother had to tell them their Daddy was never coming home. I'm feeling so many emotions. Sadness, pity, anger! Did he really do this to his family and if so, how could he do this to them? You could see when you were around him that he loved his family very much. So, why in the hell would he leave them this way?! He couldn't have been in his right mind. There's no way anyone who kills themselves is thinking clearly. His body hadn't died, but had his mind? It had to have been an accident. There is no way this could have been intentional.
I'm feeling guilt. It's deep and puzzling to me because it wasn't like I was one of his closest friends. But, there's this guilt nevertheless. Did a disease called depression kill our friend? If so, maybe I'm angry because noone saw this coming. But, that's not fair either. We can't blame ourselves for choices people make. Can we? Do we look for something or someone to blame because if we can find it, a tragedy like this is easier to take? This guy had a life that was blessed! His family and friends were robbed. I'm so friggin' angry about it!
My heart is heavy with sadness. If he did this deliberately, it's so messed up! There's no taking it back. And if he did do this, it's heartbreaking that he was so distressed and convinced this was his only answer. I know depression is real, an illness. You can only go to a very dark place to believe your only solution is a premature exit.
Here are some facts that have come to light recently. He bought plane tickets for he and his girls to visit family out of the country this week for a 3 week visit! Right before setting out on his walk, he was bidding on e-bay. He had camping trips planned. Does someone really do these things if they're about to kill themselves? I'm more and more convinced that this had to have been a freak, unfortunate accident.
For now, police have ruled his death a suicide. I'm just not so sure. An accident makes much more sense.
So many unanswered questions never to be answered. No matter what, he's gone and it sucks.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
15 Words of Wisdom
1. God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts.
2. Dear God, I have a problem, it' s Me.
3. Growing old is inevitable ... growing UP is optional.
4. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.
5. Silence is often misinterpreted but never misquoted.
6. Do the math .... count your blessings.
7. Faith is the ability to not panic.
8. Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging.
9. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry.
10. As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home everyday.
11. Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape.
12. The most important things in your house are the people.
13. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.
14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.
15 . He who dies with the most toys is still dead.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Big Mouth
I really don't mean to piss people off. It is not something I set out to do, although some people in my life would probably disagree. Now, unless you're one of my ex-husbands (of which I have 2 that deserve it), you're wrong.
Yes, I have strong opinions, a big mouth, I'm bold and I have a strong faith. With that kind of combination, you're bound to piss someone off once in a while. I get it. I own the fact that I piss people off, but they piss me off too! Sometimes, the ignorant things they say piss me off. Sometimes, the way someone acts will piss me off. And although I try my best to value each person's right to believe whatever they want to, at times, the more radical and tolerant their beliefs become piss me off too. That doesn't mean I "disown" them. I have friends and family that don't feel the same as I do on certain issues. I still love them, we just agree to disagree and drop it. I don't have to agree with what you say and vice versa. But, I still have the right to believe you're wrong.
Is my faith stronger than a friendship? The answer is yes. If you had a friend or relative that was narcissistic, pressuring you into drinking (when you're sober), setting you up with someone (when you're married), making fun of you all the time, etc. etc., do you wish that person well, love them in spite of it, but move on? Some people I can spend 1 week with, others a day. Still, there are some, an hour of my time is plenty.
I love Jesus. I love His Father too and the Holy Spirit's been really good to me. But, being a professing Christian in no way means I'm perfect or flawless. Trust me (or just ask my daughters!). I'm FAR from anywhere close to the Christian I should be. I think I relate better with David than any other character in the Bible. Here's a guy who was after God's heart, yet he was a constant sinner, a murdererer, a liar, and even an adulterer! Yet, David truly loved God.
There are some people who like to question my Christianity because I dare to question their belief system or where it came from. They love to quote scripture, "thou shalt not judge." Yes, you're absolutely right! That's God's job and He'll perform it to perfection one day for each of us after we draw our last breath. It's funny that those people who LOVE to quote Scripture only believe the parts of the Bible that are convenient for them at the time.
But, Jesus NEVER said to tolerate sin. NEVER. Yes, He said, "love thy neighbor", He said, "love one another as I have loved you". But, He NEVER said "thou shalt tolerate each other's sins, accept them and let's everybody just get along!" I don't know what Bible you're reading, if any, but He NEVER said that. You won't find it in there.
We live in a world today that becomes more tolerant of sin every day. We have become desensitized to sin that happens right in front of our eyes. Everywhere you look, even Christians, are settling and becoming more and more complacent to what's going on around us for fear of "offending" someone. Some are trying to do something about it, while others do nothing. Show me in Scripture where Jesus calls us to be popular or go along with the crowd for the sake of being uncomfortable. Show me.
So, if I piss you off, I don't mean to, I really don't! And I thank you in advance for loving me anyway, as I will do my best to love you.
But, I've got a big mouth. And I can't keep it shut.
Yes, I have strong opinions, a big mouth, I'm bold and I have a strong faith. With that kind of combination, you're bound to piss someone off once in a while. I get it. I own the fact that I piss people off, but they piss me off too! Sometimes, the ignorant things they say piss me off. Sometimes, the way someone acts will piss me off. And although I try my best to value each person's right to believe whatever they want to, at times, the more radical and tolerant their beliefs become piss me off too. That doesn't mean I "disown" them. I have friends and family that don't feel the same as I do on certain issues. I still love them, we just agree to disagree and drop it. I don't have to agree with what you say and vice versa. But, I still have the right to believe you're wrong.
Is my faith stronger than a friendship? The answer is yes. If you had a friend or relative that was narcissistic, pressuring you into drinking (when you're sober), setting you up with someone (when you're married), making fun of you all the time, etc. etc., do you wish that person well, love them in spite of it, but move on? Some people I can spend 1 week with, others a day. Still, there are some, an hour of my time is plenty.
I love Jesus. I love His Father too and the Holy Spirit's been really good to me. But, being a professing Christian in no way means I'm perfect or flawless. Trust me (or just ask my daughters!). I'm FAR from anywhere close to the Christian I should be. I think I relate better with David than any other character in the Bible. Here's a guy who was after God's heart, yet he was a constant sinner, a murdererer, a liar, and even an adulterer! Yet, David truly loved God.
There are some people who like to question my Christianity because I dare to question their belief system or where it came from. They love to quote scripture, "thou shalt not judge." Yes, you're absolutely right! That's God's job and He'll perform it to perfection one day for each of us after we draw our last breath. It's funny that those people who LOVE to quote Scripture only believe the parts of the Bible that are convenient for them at the time.
But, Jesus NEVER said to tolerate sin. NEVER. Yes, He said, "love thy neighbor", He said, "love one another as I have loved you". But, He NEVER said "thou shalt tolerate each other's sins, accept them and let's everybody just get along!" I don't know what Bible you're reading, if any, but He NEVER said that. You won't find it in there.
We live in a world today that becomes more tolerant of sin every day. We have become desensitized to sin that happens right in front of our eyes. Everywhere you look, even Christians, are settling and becoming more and more complacent to what's going on around us for fear of "offending" someone. Some are trying to do something about it, while others do nothing. Show me in Scripture where Jesus calls us to be popular or go along with the crowd for the sake of being uncomfortable. Show me.
So, if I piss you off, I don't mean to, I really don't! And I thank you in advance for loving me anyway, as I will do my best to love you.
But, I've got a big mouth. And I can't keep it shut.
Monday, May 7, 2012
"OOPS, I did it again!"
Last Saturday night, I did it again. I don't think I expected to, wasn't planning on it or had even thought about it, not seriously anyway. But, I did it............again.
A new friend of mine, Paul Aldrich, is a comedienne who has been doing stand-up for 30 years. Through a mutual friend, we were introduced to each other and after a 10 minute conversation on the phone, it happened! He invited me to do a few minutes of stand-up! Of course, I hesitated for a moment. Ok, not that long, and said "YES!"
Paul also wanted to turn this into a charity event for the pregnancy center, which I thought was admirable, so how could I say no? Everyone knows that I'll do just about anything for our center and the cause of life. The night was called "Paul & Friends!" I was one of his "friends!"
Once again, I had a blast! At this point in my life, I have so much on my plate. I'm the Executive Director of a Pregnancy Center, writing my 2nd book, hosting a FOXSports Radio Program, performing in a musical, accepting speaking engagements across the country and opening a 2nd Pregnancy Center. And that's just my professional life. My personal life is even crazier! I'm raising a 16 year old daughter and helping to support a 20 year old in college. My professional life combined doesn't add up to the everyday challenges of dealing with my teenager!
And now, I"ve performed stand-up for the second time. I'm not complaining whatsoever. God has been very good to me. He's blessed me beyond what I deserve.
So, how many careers can someone really have? I don't know, but I'm up for the challenge to find out! This comedy thing is therapeutic for me. I share stories about my life and family and people laugh about it. They are laughing AT me! And I don't mind!
So, who knows? Maybe another "Paul & Friends" is in my future?! A Zanie's appearance? Chelsea Lately? Or maybe JAY LENO one day?
Now, that's funny.
A new friend of mine, Paul Aldrich, is a comedienne who has been doing stand-up for 30 years. Through a mutual friend, we were introduced to each other and after a 10 minute conversation on the phone, it happened! He invited me to do a few minutes of stand-up! Of course, I hesitated for a moment. Ok, not that long, and said "YES!"
Paul also wanted to turn this into a charity event for the pregnancy center, which I thought was admirable, so how could I say no? Everyone knows that I'll do just about anything for our center and the cause of life. The night was called "Paul & Friends!" I was one of his "friends!"
Once again, I had a blast! At this point in my life, I have so much on my plate. I'm the Executive Director of a Pregnancy Center, writing my 2nd book, hosting a FOXSports Radio Program, performing in a musical, accepting speaking engagements across the country and opening a 2nd Pregnancy Center. And that's just my professional life. My personal life is even crazier! I'm raising a 16 year old daughter and helping to support a 20 year old in college. My professional life combined doesn't add up to the everyday challenges of dealing with my teenager!
And now, I"ve performed stand-up for the second time. I'm not complaining whatsoever. God has been very good to me. He's blessed me beyond what I deserve.
So, how many careers can someone really have? I don't know, but I'm up for the challenge to find out! This comedy thing is therapeutic for me. I share stories about my life and family and people laugh about it. They are laughing AT me! And I don't mind!
So, who knows? Maybe another "Paul & Friends" is in my future?! A Zanie's appearance? Chelsea Lately? Or maybe JAY LENO one day?
Now, that's funny.
Friday, May 4, 2012
Thankful....Yet Pissed
Lately, I've been thinking about Trudy more than usual. There's just so much going on in my life that I want to tell her about, you know? I miss our morning phone calls. I miss our evening phone calls. Those "throughout the day" phone calls. Thank God for unlimited minutes.
Noone on this planet knew me as well as Trudy Taylor. We were as close as two people could be. When Trudy died, she truly took all my secrets with her. And she knew ALL of them. I was told the other day that our friendship was like those once in a lifetime kind and I should be thankful for the 25 years I had with her. Trust me, I am. But, I wanted more. I'm crushed that I won't get them. She had so much to live for and desperately wanted to. I know God has a plan in everything He does. But, I'm human. I can't help questioning Him sometimes. It's ok, He gets me.
I am going to be 48 on June 2nd. God willing, I should have at minimum 25 or more years left in me. The thought of living without our friendship causes me to hyperventilate at times. Seriously.
I see something, I want to call her. I read something, I want to call her. I buy a great outfit, I want to call her. I speak at an event, I want to take her with me. I'm upset, I want to tell her. I can't.
Yes, God, I'm thankful for those 25 years, but I wanted 25 more. I'm pissed that I won't get them.
Noone on this planet knew me as well as Trudy Taylor. We were as close as two people could be. When Trudy died, she truly took all my secrets with her. And she knew ALL of them. I was told the other day that our friendship was like those once in a lifetime kind and I should be thankful for the 25 years I had with her. Trust me, I am. But, I wanted more. I'm crushed that I won't get them. She had so much to live for and desperately wanted to. I know God has a plan in everything He does. But, I'm human. I can't help questioning Him sometimes. It's ok, He gets me.
I am going to be 48 on June 2nd. God willing, I should have at minimum 25 or more years left in me. The thought of living without our friendship causes me to hyperventilate at times. Seriously.
I see something, I want to call her. I read something, I want to call her. I buy a great outfit, I want to call her. I speak at an event, I want to take her with me. I'm upset, I want to tell her. I can't.
Yes, God, I'm thankful for those 25 years, but I wanted 25 more. I'm pissed that I won't get them.
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