Thursday, April 30, 2009

Patience

As you know, I've moved to another state. Far, far away from family, friends, my granddaughter (she arrives in early June!) and my Granny. I'm trying to stay positive and keeping my eyes focused on the good things about being here, like: I have a wonderful husband, Kendra and Kolby love it here, Kendra is cheering on Varsity, has her first boyfriend and refuses to leave until she graduates (next May!). Kolby is popular with everyone, playing basketball, cheerleading and now managing track. She's simply amazing. George has a great job that most of the time, he enjoys.

Me? Well, my new job is awesome. I love being a part of something that is actually making a difference in the lives of others. I have a great staff and I enjoy coming to work everyday. We have a beautiful home, great neighbors and our marriage is better than I could have ever imagined marriage to be, based on my past experiences.

But, I do miss "home". It's not that I don't understand that home is where your heart is, it's just that I miss so many things that I took for granted. I miss driving to Granny's house anytime I wanted to visit and just hang out with her. I miss getting in my car and going to the beach, the mountains or to see the girl's in Nashville. Or taking a 9 hour trip to Orlando to see Mom and Brenda for a long weekend. I felt closer to everyone when I was on the East Coast. Now, I sometimes feel like I'm on another continent.

But, I will say this. Living here these past 9 months has been great for George, Kendra, Kolby and I to establish our new family. We have not only grown closer, but have gotten to really know and enjoy eachother's company. We seem to have true balance in our lives.

God knew that George was on his way into my life. He also knew that George would be getting transferred and there's no doubt in my mind that the Lord knew exactly what He was doing when He sent us here. We needed this time away from everyone, even if it hasn't been easy for me. Although there are so many things I miss, I know this is just for a time.

The Lord knows the desires of my heart. He's never let me down before. So, I'm counting the blessings that I have here, and trying not to just focus on the ones that I feel I'm missing.

So, until the day comes when we are headed back East (and in the name of Jesus, that day will come!), I'm going to do my part to trust Him with all my heart and rest in the fact that this is only temporary.

My marriage, my family, my friends, my relationship with my Savior? Now, those are permanent.

5 comments:

Victoria said...

George said...
Well, it would only be appropriate if your husband were the first to comment on this blog. I can tell you that the anxiety and "disconnected" feeling that you are feeling is not unique to you.....nor is it taken for granted by me. I miss "the East" (even though I'm from the Midwest!) and all of the great things about it....grass, trees, rivers, lakes...you know, all the normal things in normal places!!

Life will take us to many places over the course of our years, my love, but it will never take us away from each other! Arizona is just one stop on our life journey, so I'm trying to enjoy the ride and be the husband and stepfather that I need to be until we pack our bags and get out of "Dodge"!

I love you.

Victoria said...

:) No wonder I love you so much. Thanks baby.

"To Be Strong". said...

you made me cry! in a way, i am glad you moved away because it is true that time makes the heart grow fonder. i value our friendship so much, and when i saw you recently, it was as if you never left. that's when you know the value of a friendship- when you can pick up where you left off and never miss a beat! i know many call you friend, and i am glad to be included in that group. i love you, my sister in Christ!

"To Be Strong". said...

Well said, George!

Ann said...

Now put on your bright red heels and repeat after me....there's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home....;) did it work???

We miss you guys tons...can't wait to cook out or take a trip or just hang out with you guys....but God knows what he is doing...you will be home soon....and we will be waiting for you....luv you.